Sunday, April 10, 2005

UGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I just don't get it. All my boyfriend wants to do with me is fight. I mean for what!!!! I love him and he loves me, why the arguing? One minute he is okay and the next he is freaking out like I am going to cheat on him or something. I know its hard being without each other but damn, I just don't get it. My friend Antoinette thinks he's is going to come back before the two months are up. She says he can't live without me. I am like whatever. So anyway we having been fighting all day. This is the problem. I like to go out and have fun and party. He USE to be like that but now he has changed. He's more of the let's hang out at yo house type of guy!!! Plus he says when I go out I flirt too much. I mean what is wrong with harmless flirting? I was this way the day he met me and has been for the last 6 years so again I ask what the problem is., cause I just don't get it. Hell, I have been this way since high school. I can't help it, I like to have fun. And it's weird because I didn't go out tonight and he barely calls me. Now when I go out with my girls I get a phone call every 10 minutes asking me where am I, what am I doing. And don't get me wrong I LOVE going out with my boyfriend it's just he get WAY too jealous. If a guy even looks at me for a minute too long then it's like world war 3 in the club. I think maybe it has to do with him gaining a couple of pounds since we first got together back in the late 90s-well not a couple a whole lots. I am talking at least 60, but I love him anyway so why should it matter. I mean I can't lie I have gained like 25, but who cares. I think he is a little insecure but I try to make him not think about it. But if it bothers him so much why not just go to the gym. If it bothered me I wouldn't be with him but I am not that shallow. It just meat (smile) and in all honestly I like having something to hold onto. Life goes on, you get older and that's the way it is. I don't get it. But I guess it's bothering him with him being all the way in Hawaii and I am in Vegas. But maybe we need time apart. So as of right now I choose to NOT answer my phone when he calls. I don't have time for petty shit. My friends say he just misses me, but I say if you miss me why argue. Life is too short.

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